i'm so fucking hungry my stomach is eating itself. i've been chain smoking my days away. today i curled up in a ball and read a large portion of today. although i did wakeup at 4pm...so lazy. everyday I question what i'm doing with my silly life. I love it..but it needs change. It was so dark and rainy today and yesterday was beautiful and sunny...we drank beers on the stoop in the sunshine. Oooh the life!