summer please please please.

ah, i'm back in new york. apartment hunting and running around. i feel as if my friends have been thinned out. i somewhat feel like an outsider. i'll get used to it. it's been rainy and dark...it's kind of nice although all i can think about is getting an apartment, wearing cut offs, having nate in new york city, flowing dresses, endless cigarettes, riding bikes everywhere, hangout outside on stoops and roofs. please...just make it summer already.

home is when ever im with you.

lately;

ah, i just made a french press of fresh speeder and earls coffee and i'm smoking a camel light sitting on a dirty porch in burlington, vermont. i've been here for quite some time and i'm not sure if i'm taking a step backwards being here or moving forward. i feel like i can finally think although i've been moving around like a slug while my brain is exploding with ideas. i need these trips to vermont or else i go insane in new york. i miss new york lots. i miss my friends mostly. i sometimes just cant deal.

i need out.

waiting, waiting, waiting. going through the motions. missing my best friends and brooklyn. but also dreaming of california. soon everything will fall into place. thank you for being so kind and always taking me back when things fall apart, vermont.